PINK ROSE, MY CHAMPION
My name is Rose. I have gone pain through endlessly. The part of my body relies on as serious transplanted kidney. So long, I wait an extended hand from someone. It’s such a happiness you have complete organs. Not like me who have to take medicine when I need. If it were happening because of God by Redo’s hand, my breath would be stopped. Dew kiss that wets on my check and eyelid has made me to recall by pastime with him. I couldn’t forget Reno, my special boyfriend since my life was covered by dark ages at the time of happening. Naturally, I were like a branch of spruce-fir which was falling down if it would be touched by sunlight. I insist by my self in the weakness to go out to investigate what kind of disease I injure. What a pity I’m when I hear Dr. Firdaus’s statement. He said that I should do transplanted kidney as soon as possible. Because one of those has not given it’s function into the body. Hopeless comes frighten me back. Then, I run powerful quickly like I want to omit my condolences that happened to me. ‘Til I get my body is lying back in the same hospital where my place in. “Where am I?” I ask to my surroundings. Redo answered: “You’re in the hospital, Rose. But, don’t be afraid because you will get better soo”. While my Dad always held on my hand, I was lying on. Although my head was so dizzy, I tried to open my eyes. Dad, Redo, and …were here. Beside me. Once a while, Reno never visited me. I miss him but I hate him. May he had been knowing that I had a transplanted kidney operation. I didn’t know where he has gone. In my dream, he was always there. “Reno, where’re you?” ‘Til my Dad couldn’t receive the situation. “Why it should be like that” I ask being for my self. Periodically, I reflect to my self remembering about my past time. When we were both affection, it run into the blood. There’re my friends that remind me not to fall in love with him. They also said that he was the greatest playboy. But, I ignore them. Yesterday once more. Even, I dare to refuse Redo after he says that he loves me. Just only to satisfy Reno’s passion Reno’s passion. Now, I regret all thing I did in the past with him.
I frequently imagine the beautiful ones with him, giving affection, hand in hand, go for a walk together. He was so passionate. He often swore but he never fulfilled. I never thought he was making love with me only to satisfy him. The thing that I would never forget was his softness. He could make me fly like a butterfly in the fantasy with the sweetest words. I have considered only me could conguer his heart. We were often dating in the romantic place. Four months I did my love story with Reno patiently. After addicted thinking about him, I always lost as long as we were loving.
I have stressed by my funeral ages a long time. Shine the dark silhouette. In fact, Reno made love with Bertha, too. She was my best friend that I have ever had. I supposed she would be my faithful friend in joy and sorrow. We were kept our friendship since we were child. But, I’ve made mistake. She was not my best friend again. I saw with my naked eyes, Reno kissed Bertha anytime he would. In front of me, she would be happy if she heard my love story with Reno. Behind me, she was killing me unwillingly. “I hate this,” I said.
Someday, I haven’t had a spirit in my life. I decided suicide was the best choice I could do that time. I wish I could die. Nevertheless my love story was finishing here. Nothing I could hope from him. Then, I took a sharp knife with my hand on the table to fast my death. I dislike by the words and hypocritical he has been showing by the manners. “ Lucky, I am. God is still lovin’ me” My Dad helped and then brought me repeatedly. The same blood group both us belonged “0”. He was contributing his blood while I virtually needed it. I owe to him. “ You’re very kind of me, Redo! But I apologise if I can’t gratitude on your hand.” Though I always tried and tried to achieve his love but the only one, Reno filled in my heart. Because he was my first love. “ Did you know Redo, the day more nice the beautiful when I went for a walk with Reno.” It could make me feel happy and find a joy ful. But after our love were died because of my own friend, Bertha. I didn’t have a hope again. In addition dr. Firdaus’s statement that supposed me to do a transplanted kidney soon. Firstly, in my opinion, Reno has gone far from me because of my disease. Possibly, he was afraid of my body which was weak and mightn’t give him a child if I got married with. Incidentally, I haven’t understood yet. So long, I waste time unwisely only to Reno. But, I didn’t know where he was. Nothing my memories in his soul.
Love is showing protection from hazardious, closing fault, sharing together to solve the problem, isn’t it? Why it should be happened after I gave all of my body and soul to him. It’s clear that Reno just wanted my scent and body. I hate him but I can’t forget him and still love him. To Reno, even I ignore Redo softly, never give attention. Choosing Reno than Redo was made me blind. If I chose Redo, possibility I wouldn’t regret along my life. He had a pure love, the true love just for me.
From the moment I desperated. There was no one who contributed a kidney that appropriated mine. Redo offered it to be transplanted into mine sincerely. I liked him so much but couldn’t love him The day was unconscious way. Redo has surrendered his kidney. Virtually he has been knowing that I couldn’t love him whenever my feet walked away.
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The day when I opened my eyes widely nothing could be guessed. I couldn’t feel transplanted kidney operation has been finished. I only know a piece of paper written by Redo and a bunch of Pink Rose, my favourite one.
There was a poem, namely “ PINK ROSE, MY CHAMPION ”. His words were still in my mind ‘till the edge of loving. I hesitate, “ Is it love poem or separation one between me and him?”. It contents:

PINK ROSE,MY CHAMPION

Pink, My Rose
The one in my heart
Pink, My Rose
The sweetest love that I have
Pink, My Rose
The one in my dream
Pink, My Rose
The truly love that I found
Pink Rose
You are my champion
Love from

( Redo )